Heart it races

I have experienced what I believe to be the will of God for my life - how can I go back to the way things were? I have no desire to, but if I stay here, that's what's going to happen. I desire to be brave enough to die for Christ, yet braver still to live for Him. The following are some things I'm begging God to grow within me:

-To be bold and fearless for Christs highest standards
-To not blend in because it's easier
-To proclaim my faith in Jesus with wisdom
-To no longer hold back when I feel the need to say "I love you"
-To be a caring and thoughtful person at every oppurtunity
-To be selfless; stop putting myself first
-To live frugally and realize the money I earn is never mine; always willing to give it up
-To be more conscious of what I put in my body and how I treat it since it's a gift
-To rededicate my purity in all it's forms and reclaim Gods way of living and loving
-To give up certain addictions/temptations that keep me from obtaining that purity
-To learn Gods Word enough to stand on it and know what I'm talking about
-To tak about it with conviction and certainty
-To give out an unconditional love as Christ shows me daily
-To truly know and claim generosity and hospitality
-To pray on behalf of others right when asked and whenever they're on my heart

These are the things I strive for. The Lord knows the desires of my heart, including the want for a romantic love and partnership with someone who's passionately working at these same characteristics. I haven't admitted that I'm lonely in a very long time, because I know when all is said and done it's going to be me before the Lord, and I've got to be right in Him. But dear Jesus, I am lonely. Keep me strong, keep me searching, keep me yearning for You. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

I can trust in that.